| R.I.P Justin |
[27 Feb 2005|06:08pm] |
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i don't know how i feel. I lost another friend last night. Justin Cobb died in a car accident. I can't explain how i feel. It hasn't sunk in. First Pete commits suicide and now this. It hurts even more. I think it's a lot different when someone young ends their own life. But justin, oh my god. I can't find the words to say anything that i am thinking right now. I don't even....know. I can't even get my thoughts in my head straight let alone write them out. Rest in Peace. <3
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[28 Jan 2005|09:42pm] |
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hahaha so check it out.
Take the quiz: "What do you love about making love?"
Thrill
You're in it for the thrill, the excitement, the adrenaline rush, you do it anywhere and everywhere. You love the danger of getting caught.... but be carefull..... you might scar some children for life!
Anyshit, i'm justing sitting around doing nothin. won't have my car back until tomorrow. Which still blows. Maybe i'll go watch dawn of the dead again. Man my old journals used to be so long. I have nothing to say. Or maybe just to much to know where to start. :/
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[20 Jan 2005|08:01pm] |
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SEPULTURA! Workin all week and shit. my car is broken. they're trying to find a new trans for it. I don't even want the stupid escort anymore. but "pickers can't be choosey". Why does my house have to be so boring. I swear there isn't a single thing here that interests me besides the food. haha. amanda told me a cute saying today. I'm gonna sock you like hanes. HURR. Later.
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| ALAS! |
[11 Jan 2005|06:41pm] |
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Man. I keep forgetting about this journal thing. I have a lot of things on my mind right now. They're really nothing to be blabbing about on the internet. lets just say i'm confused, and always end up getting a shitty hand dealt to me. Went snowboarding for 10 hours on sunday. I got that shit now. It's so fun. I'm so sore though, I biffed pretty hard on the big hill and it knocked the wind out of me. I couldn't breathe for awhile. But hey! it's all gravy. I got a new back massager and it's so amazing. Picked up some cocoa butter too. I haven't been to work in two days. BAD AMY BAD GORILLA. Well thats all for now. peace mang.
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[06 Dec 2004|10:32am] |
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It's been a long while kids. I woke up this morning planning on going to school, but when i went to leave my winsheild wiper broke off my car. So me and my dad had to fix it, and since it takes me 45 minutes to get to school, and i already missed the class i needed to go to, i just said screw it. I'm not having a good week :/ I got an MIP the other night as well, because amy is a moron and was being a smartass with the cop. Whatever. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger. I don't feel stronger though. I called in to work today. My knees are killing me. I have a doctors appointment at 12:10. Oh how i can't wait for that time. Hopefully one of these days i will get my shit together. Until then, gawd if ya listenin HEEEELP.
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| What did i do to deserve... |
[07 Nov 2004|06:21pm] |
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Haven't updated in a long while. I've been kind of busy. Halloween weekend was pretty tits. I got smashed with some old friends. Got tickets to the manson show next weekend. It should be pretty cool. I'm not a huge fan, but donnie wanted to go. I don't have much to say. Worked all day, i'm pretty tired. Peace.
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[15 Oct 2004|01:23am] |
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WOOOOOO MANY concerts coming up. The internet is gay.
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| Uhhh... |
[09 Oct 2004|09:46pm] |
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Vicodin <3 Screw taking motrin for my knees. Lol. Hung out with donnie today. We really didn't do much. Probably gonna make us some money tomorrow. Heather stopped by for a little bit, and a whole bunch of stupid people came over after the homecoming dance at the high school. Most of the are jimmy's friends. Which is weird seeing as to how he's OLDER than donnie. I whooped some ASS in mortal kombat deadly alliance today. \m/
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| The world is a vampire. |
[07 Oct 2004|08:03am] |
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Sent to drain. Secret destroyers. Hold you up to the flame. And what do i get? From my pain. Ok enough. Havent been doin much but working lately. Moose got popped drinking and driving like a dumbass the other day. Donnie had to get up at 4 in the morning so he could go pick him up. What s hitty deal seeing as to how he won 500 bucks at the bar earlier. I think that maybe i need to stop being such a lazy ass, and i need to stop making excuses for myself. I need to direct myself somewhere and stop living this groundhogs day over and over again. No one is gonna make things happen for me except for myself. So....on that note. Bye.
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[30 Sep 2004|01:52pm] |
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Yea. Fuck people. People like to play games. And i don't. Why do they have to be so immature? We're past that. Grow the fuck up. Maybe you meant nothing to me in the first place. Maybe you did. But now, you'll never know. Why? Cuz it's not worth my time. Not anymore.
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| .... |
[27 Sep 2004|12:10am] |
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I am so damned tired. I have school and work again tomorrow. Hung out with donnie for a bit tonight. We just got blown out and went moose's. We played MK Deadly Alliance. That game is the shit. Video Games <3 We also looked up prices of plane tickets for lori. She's coming back from florida next month. Road Trip tickets aren't really THAT expensive. But everything is expensive to me, since i can't afford anything. Jamey got a ticket going through armada the other night. Oh yea..and on the way to moose's me and donnie got pulled over AGAIN. But this time it was by one of the sheriff's that was at his house last month. The one that said "When we see you out driving, we're gonna pull you over and search the whole car. We weren't speeding or doing anything wrong and he just flew up on our ass, and then waited a few minutes to even pull us over. I told the officer donnie was driving my car because i took cough medicine that makes me drowsy and he was like "Oh okay." He asked donnie if we were smoking pot and he said no. Then the cop went back to his car for what seemed like 10 minutes...and when he came back all he said was "Goodnight." That's right you fucking pigs, BOTH of our records are clean now. Welp, I'm tired. G'Night.
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| shjaklhdfsfsahdjfsaewi |
[24 Sep 2004|01:14am] |
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So yea, no new pics :/ My brother is a dillhole and doesn't know how to adjust the shutter speed on his camera. I even told him to let me fix it while we were taking the pictures so that SOMETHING LIKE THIS wouldn't happen. I'm been seeing a lot of jamey lately. I didn't realize how much i missed him until now. He left me a whole bunch of smokes cuz i'm out. He's such a great guy, driving all this way to my house to hang out. None of my friends from the city do that. We were sitting in my room last night looking at pics from like 2000. It made me smile. I didn't know i had so many pictures of me and him together. Then we watched American Psycho and i kept falling asleep. Good times. I got offered more hours at work today, because a new girl already quit. :D Theresa is awesome. I get more hours than all the other cashiers as it is...and she still offered ashley's hours to me. She loves me. One of the stock boys was telling me that ashley was trying to get a job somewhere esle, but she had to go through the training first. What a dumbass. I would have made sure i had the job first, because ace isn't gonna hire her back. Oh well. I'm also working TWO weekends in a row. One of the other cashiers wanted to switch with me...so that means that i work the next two weekends...but then i have two off in a row. My next day off is tuesday...then i work everyday again until the following tuesday. But it's cool...i like my job. Well this is long enough to start a novel. Later.
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[20 Sep 2004|04:18pm] |
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Today's been cool so far. Got all my computer class homework up to date. I got a free massage today in psychology class. We had a guest speaker..and you better believe i volunteered for that shit! She's like "wow you have a lot of tension in your shoulders". Trust me dear..i know these things. My throat is kind of...all scratchy today. hrm weird. anyways that's all. peaaace.
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| smash shit |
[19 Sep 2004|05:21pm] |
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Today has been pretty nice. I woke up and the first thing i got asked was if i wanted to smash things. My brother needed "action" pictures for his photography class. So we went out in the woods and smashed the shit out of his tv with a sledgehammer. Destruction is awesome. \m/ Hopefully i will have the pics tomorrow. We'll see if he developes them in class. :D
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| HARPO'S |
[18 Sep 2004|01:43pm] |
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Last night was a fucking blast. Long islands always do me good. The pit got a little crazy last night. Everyone was getting their ass kicked, but now people know better than to fuck with one of the crew. I seen one dude get a few teeth busted out, and then he got pulled out of the pit by some gaurds. I was watching him earlier though...that guy was so drunk by that time he had more on the floor then in his mouth. I kept getting pulled out of the pit by my shirt :X I spent so much money yesterday...I'm so broke. I have 20 bucks for the REST of the week. Tell me that doesn't in fact lick balls. I think it's about time to quit smoking...I can't even breathe today. I don't feel like doing anything i don't think. My contacts are in!! So hopefully i will be able to see later on. Maybe if i feel like it i will check out heathers party later. Man, i really need to get my shit together. I'm fucking flat broke and i just got paid yesterday.
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| BOP BOP |
[16 Sep 2004|11:15pm] |
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Work today was okay. Me and my dad are talking again. Of course...the only reason why was because the first thing he said to me was "Hey Amy, wanna get high?". Damn the man. Having this weekend off is gonna own souls! Heather's having a going away party saturday. I hope there isn't a whole bunch of wiggers there like there always is. Well...i have nothing to say.
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| whoa |
[16 Sep 2004|12:42am] |
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(216) - Withdrawn |
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Worked today. I went to jamey's b/c my psyche class was canceled. I am doing okay for not being able to see for shit. The show on friday will be tough though...it's so dark in harpos. Jamey smoked some hash with me when i got off work...it was nice ;] We sat in the park then went and smoked with heather and her boyfriend cory in some parking lot. I have a life, i lied. Ed was by my register almost all night...all he fucking does is talk about his car. >.< It drives me insane. Ego maniacs piss me off. Well my eyes burn, i'm going to bed.
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| Ugh |
[14 Sep 2004|08:24pm] |
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Very horrible couple of days. Yesterday me and donnie got wasted at like 2 in the afternoon, we polished a fifth of vodka in like...and hour. It was a good time. I don't have any contacts...i lost one...and shiit. I won't be able to get new ones for like a week. I can't see for shit. Why won't anyone hear me out?
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| Yea.. |
[11 Sep 2004|09:39pm] |
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So....disregard all that bullshit. None of that matters. All i need is myself. Everything will be fine. :D
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| Blahhh |
[10 Sep 2004|11:36pm] |
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Man, i don't know what's wrong with my brain. Nothing is fun to me anymore. I realized while sitting in my room the other day that i only use it for one thing...to sleep in....other than that i have nothing to entertain myself with. Not to mention i don't have any friends. I mean, i have plenty of people that i talk to and whatnot...but i don't really have anyone close to me. Or anyone that really knows me. I guess i just get down about it sometimes. Maybe if i stopped smoking pot for awhile i would stop feeling like such shit when i'm not high. Seriously...weed is the only thing that i like. It's sad. Maybe the people that do try to get close to me i just push away. I don't mean to. I guess i'm just used to being alone, and that's how it's meant to be. The only time i really have fun is when i go to shows. Which lately hasn't been often. And it's always hard trying to find someone to go with me. No one likes to go to shows alone. Ahhh i don't know. It just feels like no matter how hard i try i just can't get anywhere. I thought having a job now would make me feel better...but it really didn't. In fact i think i feel a little worse, even though i have a little bit of money. I'm done bitching for now.
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